...if you have faith as a mustard seed, you will say to this mountain, 'Move from here to there,' and it will move; and NOTHING WILL BE IMPOSSIBLE FOR YOU (Matthew 17:20).
I've mentioned before that I had fertility problems, but I'd like to actually share the story. Five years ago, I was married, and we wanted to have kids. So we tried, for a year, and I charted and did basal temps and nothing. We went through rounds of fertility testing, and the problem was me...my ovaries did not ovulate due to mild poly-cystic syndrome. Dr said it was probably not a big deal, so I took 2 months of fertility drugs. First month, nothing...second month, weak ovulation not capable of sustaining a pregnancy. Before continuing, I realize that people try for much longer with success. But that's not really me. It was exhausting and honestly just too hard. So I resolved to completely give up the dream of kids. I had an IUD placed to prevent even the hope from forming every month. Eventually our marriage broke up for unrelated reasons, and I pushed the idea of family out of my head.
Fast forward three years, and my theology begins to take a new turn. I was raised in a very conservative, cessationist church, and we didn't talk about things like the Holy Spirit, or the book of Acts, or divine healing, or miracles. But I began to learn that God does still do these things....ALL THE TIME!!!!!!....and my faith began to change. I experienced His healing for another health issue, and my dream of a family began to awaken. Every day I threw out a prayer: "God please send me my husband and my family."
Delight yourself also in the Lord, and He shall give you the desires of your heart. Commit your way to the Lord, trust also in Him, and He shall bring it to pass (Psalms 37:4-5).
Delight myself I did, and just believed...and faith that began as a mustard seed blossomed into something extraordinarily supernatural. A little over a year ago, I sat down to pray with a friend, and received a promise from God that my dream for a family would come to pass, and that all the worries I had would simply be taken care of. Then I waited....
And I met my husband, and things happened FAST. So fast that I still feel like only the whirlwind activity of God could do so much. One night as I was praying God told me that he was my husband. So you take it on faith, and move forward....and I shared with him my history, and the promise God had made. My IUD was removed two months before we got married. Around the time we got engaged, we "accidentally" found ourselves at a revival (there are no accidents). In true revival fashion, at the end, the evangelist called for prayer for healing, and one of his specifics was for fertility. So I jumped out of the pew, and ran down front. As I stood there waiting for him to pray for me, I kept repeating "the promise is good." I remember the evangelist walking up to me and telling me to stop praying, and then he prayed.
Disclaimer: We followed God's command for purity and WAITED until we got married, and I absolutely believe that our obedience is a crucial ingredient in what He has done for us.
Now I don't believe that it was any one prayer or person or experience that suddenly bent God's hear to my heartfelt request. I believe it was a combination of continued faith and obedience. We absolutely believed in faith as a couple that God would grant our desire for children. What we didn't expect was for our prayer to be answered the very first month we were married. We were both somewhat in denial that it was seriously a possibility (myself longer than him), and when I saw those two lovely lines on that test, I just cried.
I've talked about this verse before, but it just keeps getting better:
Most assuredly, I say to you, he who believes in Me, the works that I do he will do also; and greater works than these he will do, because I go to My Father. And WHATEVER YOU ASK IN MY NAME, THAT I WILL DO, that the Father may be glorified in the Son (John 14:12-13).
I know there are amazing women reading this who have struggled with fertility, and I don't have answers to this most personal and painful subject. But what I have learned is that it all comes down to faith, obedience, and real pursuit of Jesus. I used to think that healing was definitely within our power, but still subject to God's sovereignty. While that is always true, I have come to realize that I was using that statement as an excuse for a faith that honestly wasn't enough. In the things I have prayed and requested, God has ALWAYS answered when my faith has been strong and true. I now believe that our faith is the key to God's miracles. There, I said it, and I'll say it again...
OUR FAITH IS THE KEY TO GOD'S MIRACLES!
We cannot receive what we do not believe is possible. The woman with the bleeding (Mark 5:25-34), blind Bartimaeus (Mark 10:46-52)...we must have absolute unshakeable faith that God will heal and restore. Maybe some will disagree, but I have seen the most unbelievable blessings, healings, and miracles in my own life because my faith has been big enough. So have a supernatural faith in the thing you're asking God to do for you!
